Zwinto is thinking.
Anyways, it’s almost one month ago I stopped with nicotine.
And whit that I have gained some weight.
But now it was just too much!
So, I changed the diet, take power walks when I can. And lift weights and the kettle bell.
But… Please lupus don’t take this away! I need to be in shape, I can’t be fat.
Nauseas from painkillers is awful, and now when I have taken the medicine for the night I cross my fingers that they won’t come up.
Johan has been gone for four days now, bah!:(
High and sleepy.
Zwinto is sleeping next to me, my love.
Oh, I have a new pain! How wonderful.
My life sucks.
Sleeping on Johan’s side, always when his gone.
And oh I have been in so much pain today, and I bought a ticket on the tramadol lottery! And I won!!!
I feel cozy and the pain is lower.
This should happen every time.
I have almost been awake for 24 hours, what is wrong with me?
I need my twelve hours of sleep and another 3-5 hours in bed before I close my eyes.
And, I have done things today! Like healthy people, I’m dying in pain, but it’s fine.
Well hello there, sleeping pills and painkillers! Lets have a party!
Everything hurts, I can’t sleep and I am so fucking tired! The pain meds just made me nauseas.
The only thing left to do is cry.
Muscle pain causes tension - tension causes more pain.
This is me right now. I can’t sleep.
The pain takes over, I’m hoping the painkillers will work; but I often can’t sleep when I’ve taken them.
1: Painkillers, I maybe just maybe can sleep. Or get nausea, vomit, itchy nose, feel high, depressed etc etc.
2: Pain, no sleep.
Oh I take number one! The roulette!
Living with a chronic condition, you experience loss in two ways – you mourn the way you used to live your life, and you worry about living life in the future.
- Laughing with Mr Lupus
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