I thought that the day couldn’t get any worse.
But it could! My bike broke. My lovely old bike. :(
And when me and my friend came to the hospital we had to wait over 30 minutes. Aaaaand! They didn’t knew what tests it was, so it took them about 40 minutes to figure it out. And they said: I don’t know if it’s right, but we’ll try. After that I asked: you know one has to be frozen after? She was gone ten minutes more.
I was like: and you’re supposed to specialists?!
My joints in the left foot gave up, and the right hip.
I was so damn irritated!
But anyway we did some shopping while we were in town. And I met another friend! Yes - I do have friends.
So much fun, we had ice cream and laugh so much. The day was pretty good in the end.
And I fell asleep as soon I got home.
I’m having so much fun here! I had to wait to take some tests. And later I have to go to the hospital and take some more blood tests, because they can’t take it here.
I feel like shit, I want to be home in bed and feel sorry for myself. And on Friday I have to get up at five to take the buss to another hospital. Yes, chronic illness is so much fun!
Please kill me. Please!
Story of my life.
The two things I love the most: Zwinto and being out in the forest.
I have been in so much pain, I have been so weak that I can barley walk.
It was really a struggle to take zwinto out, the clothes felt heavy and caused pain, dizziness, had to hold on to things so I wouldn’t fall. And I was so upset, sad and angry.
But as always he is so happy, even if he only gets to be outside for ten minutes.
Thankfully Johan comes home tomorrow so Zwinto will get everything he deserves.
Six days left until I get to see the new doctor.
All my hopes is fading, it’s always better to expect the worse, then you don’t get disappointed.
Anyway, the training with the dog has been going really great, big progress!
We met an old lady who walked really strange, and it was dark.
Usually he would bark like he was going to die.
But, not a sound! And I was stunned!
How can anyone live like this?
I have no idea how to handle this pain, it’s worse than before and I feel like I’m slowly dying inside.
I swear, it would be better to be dead.
Zwinto is thinking.
Anyways, it’s almost one month ago I stopped with nicotine.
And whit that I have gained some weight.
But now it was just too much!
So, I changed the diet, take power walks when I can. And lift weights and the kettle bell.
But… Please lupus don’t take this away! I need to be in shape, I can’t be fat.
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